Be Your Own Girl

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/wallflowers/beyourowngirl.html

I love this Wallflowers song. Why isn't it on iTunes? Damn you Apple!

I do have a TJ update - he's been back in contact. More on that another time.

Bah..Humbug

Ok, so this is the first Christmas in as long as I can remember that I've been almost completely alone. I am so not good being alone.

This month has been full of surprises. Some good, some that really suck. On the good side, I got a clean bill of health from a specialist that I went to see, woo hoo. R and I are back together and doing well - in fact he wants me to meet his mother and sister later this week! On the crappy side, my consulting job at a very large retail company is no longer. And one of my best girlfriends has moved away, and most of my other friends are MIA. Maybe I've offended them? Who knows.

I'm spending entirely too much time alone this holiday and I'm not dealing well with it. I really need to go out and have some alcohol-induced fun.

I realize now that I should have planned a few more things to do this week that I'm off work. I've been sitting at home the entire day today and I'm starting to go out of my mind. How am I going to occupy my time for 3 more days?!

MuncHOUSEn's Syndrome

Ok, so you know that awful disease that some parents get when they posion their kids so that they get sick and then the parent gets attention from everyone? Well, I have a new version of that syndrome. MuncHOUSEn's syndrome. I'm purposely breaking things around my house so that my hot new "Mr. Fixit" guy comes to visit....

I sure hope he knows plumbing....mine!

LOL

So is this guy really hitting on me? Here's an exerpt of our email string....start at the bottom.

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If you have anything that needs done around your home feel free to email or call. I am pretty good with my hands and would be happy to help out.
Looking forward to working with you…
Have a wonderful day Remy.
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Hi R,

Thanks for getting back to me. It runs but doesn’t get cold and it makes a strange noise. I broke down and bought a new one that is being delivered on Friday, but at the last minute, I thought to contact you to see if you might be able to fix it. It wasn’t an expense I was happy to have right before Christmas, considering all the other repairs I had to have done in November.

On the positive side, my furnace is working great! I appreciate your help with that.

If you know anyone who you could recommend who does odd jobs/handyman stuff, I’d appreciate the referral. It seems like something is always broken around my place and I’m not the greatest with tools.

Take care,

Remy

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What seems to be the problem ?? I know a little about refrigerators but not a whole lot. I did have a good Thanksgiving… How was yours?? Is your furnace working good?? Glad to hear from you…

R
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Hi,

You wouldn’t happen to be able to fix refrigerators, would you? Believe it or not, my fridge went out last week. Thought I’d check before calling around.

Hope you had a good Thanksgiving,

Remy

House on Haunted Hill

Ok, so i think my house is trying to kill me. It's true. First, it tried to drown me by breaking the sump pump and spewing water all over my basement. I think it was hoping to catch me on the treadmill working out and either a)electrocute me or b)hope that I would trip and hit my head and drown in the 2" of water on the ground. Either way, it wasn't good.

Secondly, it tried to freeze me out by making the furnace fan not work. It acutally got down to almost 60 degrees - yes, I said 60! in my house. Of course, all I had to do was put on another sweater and some long underwear and I was all good, but it didn't know that. It hoped that I would die of exposure in my bed. HA! Foiled again.

Thirdly, it killed my refrigerator in hopes that I would never leave the house and starve b/c I had no cold or frozen food to eat or cook. Man, my house is dumb, doesn't it know that I go out at least 3 times a week and I have Donatos on speed dial?

And D) it thought by making my cd player in my car not work, that I would stay home watching daytime television and die of boredom.

All I can say is, HOUSE BRING IT ON!! What's next?? A tornado in December??!! Ha - I don't think so.

Oopps...I did it again

Ok, so bad habits are hard to break. I'm home for Thanksgiving and all I can say is that I had to relive some of my 20 year class reuion memories. That's it. That's all I'm saying. If you want more information, you're gonna have to get me drunk and ask me some very pointed questions.

I'm enjoying time here in the "slow" country AKA Morton, Illinois. Where the A/C's rule (if you don't know about them - just think Mennonites with money.) Where the bars close at midnight and stop serving food at 8:30...

I do have a bartender fan at this great little Irish Pub in town. I think that will be my new goal - a bartender in my side pocket in every city I frequent. That's one way to ensure some free drinks, no? Of course, the person I was with (see first paragraph) was purchasing most of my libations...

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I'm looking foward to eating all day long and trying some of the Tennessee Jam cake I made (never tried it before...here's to hoping it's goood.)

Anyway, Columbus, I'll be back soon. Don't wait up for me.

Puefing

Ok, so i just posted a comment on Lola's site and had to type in "puefng" to get my message posted (i added the 'i' cause it seemed like it needed one) Puefing seems like such a nasty word. Kinda like queafing (sp?) and farting or something - a really bad combo. Sorry for the crassiness today...

Went to see the Cult last night at Newport - it made me feel young and old all at the same time. I loved being on campus and hearing my favorite all time college band, but then I started looking around and seeing all of the old Puef's my age and it really made me kinda sick. God, I'm getting old.

I remember dancing to Fire Woman on a bar stool at Kanes in Springfield, IL while wearing some black MC Hammer parachute pants and a tight green ballet top (with no bra, of course.) I was HOT - on Fire, you could say (pun intended!) My fake id showed me as 25 and got me in everywhere, some times I didn't need it if I flirted with the bouncer enough.

More later....

439

First let me thank Lola for encouraging me to do this, before I get too far along into my first tirade.

Not sleeping well tonight. Was dumped earlier today by R who seemed to think that it is ok to breakup with somone over the phone. Someone who he claimed to love just a few days before. Men never cease to amaze me at their ability to waffle. They say they want a relationship, in fact, they pursue you to have a relationship, then once you commit, they freak out and run in the opposite direction.

The integrity of the men that I've dated is appaling. I don't know how I attract such idiots. This one in particular, R, is in the military and going to nursing school - you would think he would be an integral person, you know? But, in the end, he disapoints. Go figure.

What I hate the most is that I've exposed my son to this man and his children. And now my child has to feel what I feel - loss, abandonment, disapointment - and he has to deal with my horrible moodiness and depression around this right now. I'm so sad that I've put him through this.